Not really sure of what I'm doing..
It's Thursday March 14th, 2019. Around 10:15 to 10:30 PM.
It's been really hard for me to be completely aware of my surroundings. I've started to isolate myself from the rest of the world, to the point where, anything else that is not me laying in bed is useless, if not worthless at all.
For years I've been struggling with myself. I have no real, physical reason to feel this way but I do. Why do I feel this way? Maybe I'm just an attention seeker. Maybe I felt bored of the ordinary so I decided to spice up things a little. Or I'm losing my sanity.
But, come on, that's just ridiculous. There's people in potential danger, suffering abuse and violence. Damn there's people that are dying and they aren't talking shit about it.
So me feeling this way is just being plain selfish and self-centered.
I just have to snap out of it.
Why can't I just snap out of it..?
It doesn't matter. I have to deal with it. They cannot know. I have worked trying to keep myself up in the eyes of others, and I just simply cannot let them see me this way. No, yes, I'm better off this way. Everyone has their issues, everyone feels down and sad one in a while, it's an obligatory part of social life.Yeah, you need to be down to go up, to fall again and rise, and fall? Like an endless loop of losing and winning. I know it might seem pessimist, but after a while of looping around I've started to think, what's the point of winning anymore? What if somedays I just feel like laying down and that's it? What's the use of feeling?
Feeling. Feelings. Their meaning depents on a solely letter S.
It's been really hard for me to be completely aware of my surroundings. I've started to isolate myself from the rest of the world, to the point where, anything else that is not me laying in bed is useless, if not worthless at all.
For years I've been struggling with myself. I have no real, physical reason to feel this way but I do. Why do I feel this way? Maybe I'm just an attention seeker. Maybe I felt bored of the ordinary so I decided to spice up things a little. Or I'm losing my sanity.
But, come on, that's just ridiculous. There's people in potential danger, suffering abuse and violence. Damn there's people that are dying and they aren't talking shit about it.
So me feeling this way is just being plain selfish and self-centered.
I just have to snap out of it.
Why can't I just snap out of it..?
It doesn't matter. I have to deal with it. They cannot know. I have worked trying to keep myself up in the eyes of others, and I just simply cannot let them see me this way. No, yes, I'm better off this way. Everyone has their issues, everyone feels down and sad one in a while, it's an obligatory part of social life.Yeah, you need to be down to go up, to fall again and rise, and fall? Like an endless loop of losing and winning. I know it might seem pessimist, but after a while of looping around I've started to think, what's the point of winning anymore? What if somedays I just feel like laying down and that's it? What's the use of feeling?
Feeling. Feelings. Their meaning depents on a solely letter S.
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