Hurts like hell
I've heard you can die of a heartbreak, I wonder how does it feel to die like that.
Don't misunderstand me, I don't mean it in that way. I have always believe that if you were able to live without someone before, then you can live the after as well.
I mean, it's logical no? My existence will not be based by someone's presence. I refuse to be ruled by that.
Sometimes my heart hurts a lot. It feels as if someone is straggling it, and it really hurts so much.. I just wish everything would stop.
Update 11/05/19
You know what? Fuck it. It feels like I'm always apologizing for feeling.
Update 13/05/19
I think I have a bipolar disorder. But not like emotions, I mean of thought. I have like a constant fight with my mind, my thoughts, and decisions. When I published the last update, I felt angry because I felt like I was always making excuses so people wouldn't feel bad or worried or like they were the cause of my depression and self deprecating behavior, and I started to put excuses to myself too.
Still, now I feel the opposite. It's weird, everytime, every thought has a different perspective, a different point of view, but it always bounces between two sides.
Hola, espero que lees esto y sabes Español, no creo que alguien pueda actualmente morir por amor, no creo que alguien tenga los cojones de hacerlo, pero sabes quien lo hizo y marco un antes y un después, sobre paso la vida y la muerte ? Exacto, Jesús, no se como te sientes ahora no se ni tu edad ni donde estas ni de donde eres y a veces pienso que ni siquiera ya estés en este mundo, pero me gustaría que sepas eso, Jesús murió y vive por ti, tal vez está persona que estruja tu corazón te lastime pero Jesús te ama y no te lastima, espero tu respuesta hace más de un año, lo seguiré haciendo !
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